Yes.. it has arrived , my little girl has reached that age, the one where we would half expect to be mature and grown up, and yet still a child , with so much to learn ......
The preparations leading up to the party went well, too well actually, in fact I was beginning to wonder if I had missed something...you know that feeling somethings just not right!..well I had that for a couple of weeks prior to the party, just could not put my finger on it ...
Anyway the night went very well, and she danced the night away, well into the night in fact, it was 2am before we all packed up..the highlight to me was a special little song I requested ,just for her and no one else...it was One day ver the rainbow... this had been my nightly song to her since she was born , litle darling must be sick to death of it by now..but on it came , she asked me to dance and we held each other so tightly , as we danced to Eva Cassidy's version , which of course was not a round when she was born , but , is such a lovely version , and as the Dj had no other listed on his digital lap top ...hhmmm..it had to be so..and I was s o glad I had done it , this was my little girl now a lovely woman , she was holding her mummy and we were both hugging with tears in our eyes , a very special moment, one not ot forget...
It was then , after a couple of minutes reminiscing , that I realised we had an audience....well, i nearly dropped ..I am not one to be in the limelight, not my thing , so bearing in mind it was my daughters 21st Birthday , and it was ll family and friends , I thought to myself , oh what the heck , let it go , and I did , and it was good , good to let go the the anxieties of being on display...it was a very special moment indeed , an awakening for both of us I think.....
As the party drew to a close , I realised I would be the Taxi , again, didn't mind though , was a pleasure , for a change!!!
And it was at this time that I realised , to my horror, just exactly what had been niggling me for a couple of weeks....
NO CAKE......can u believe it , well , silly question really , you all know by now how my brain works:)..and here I was again in that familiar place of forgetfulness, it was quiet comforting actually , as i had said before , all had gone so smoothly prior to the party, and to be honest I ws beginning to wonder if i had turned a new corner in my life, remembering everything!!!!and if I'm really honest , i found myself just that little bit reassured that it wasn't...I know , it sounds strange but, who wants to be a remember it all type of person , not me !, no thanks ..to much responsibility on that one, I am more than happy to be in my own little world , forgetful and all..
Needless to say , and luckily, there was a 24 hour Tesco opened , so off went some friends to buy a cake, my daughter was non the wiser may I add, and there it was , the end to a perfect evening , blowing out her candles ,like a rose in bloom....she will always be my little one...no matter what age or how forgetful I may become , that is something that will never change, they are all still little in our minds and hearts .........just have to grow gracefully with them now....
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